Darkness that lies beneath [My Truth]

People wonder why at times.. I'm so dark and gloomy,
Try walking in my shoes,
down this road of misconceptions,
broken promises,
missed childhood,
pre-maturity,
forced to live a life I never wanted,
to grow up without a moment of care-free bliss,
Oh the precious memories I never witness a loss & a miss,

Misunderstood to the fullest,
one mistake a pre-perceived notion of character,
called names that'd send the toughest cookie crumbling down China's great walls,
friendships never last,
reoccurring gloomy past being pulled forth in my lightness of today,
hiding as shadows under trees,
an ever seeking haunting shade,

I fight it strongly,
holding on to my faith,
Memory just as rusty as a dusty, Greek, historic Colosseum,
Family, large numbers of quantity, but the caring of only a few,

Sometimes I wonder, what did I do?,
Am I being punished for a clouded past?
A mistake I made, never resolved,
and the broken pieces recovering to put me on blast?

So the next time you judge to say why I'm this way,
Every action & emotion has a reason,
Not a thing of this is done for fun,
we are products of our environment and experience,
and this darkness beneath is a journey of a story that before you perceive it, just ask & maybe the truth will be unraveled & become as evident as the cold.

Note: I was in a dark mood, so I put my emotions channeled to a poem, and expressed it as a blog from my phone

Amerie "In Love & War" out now

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